Thursday, October 18, 2012

The Beast [English] [Nano]

I would gaze at the pieces stacked so carefully with love
From behind closed shutters that were windows to your heart
I could not find a way to build a door to let me in
It was all because I couldn't throw away my selfish pride

There are things that I would rather leave unsaid
Fear of opening a long forgotten wound

There inside the castle that I built for all myself
It was filled with an emptiness so deep that I could drown.

One day suddenly, you appeared
You had everything I had ever dreamed to have
The bricks I stacked towered over you
But you stopped
And you jumped
And you went right over

It's sad how cold you've become
Bet you were lonely all along
Scared to declare
But you gave it a flair
To repair the affair of the words that were really unfair

I would envy the pieces stacked so carefully with love
So meticulously folded one on top of the other
Locked inside a lonely castle that I built all for myself
And the doors I would close to hide away my selfish pride

There are things that I would rather leave unsaid
Fear of losing every precious thing I had
Finally the king appears in his lonesome castle and
Is amazed by his very first beautiful taste of love

Spare me from your sympathy
Because I really doubt you would ever understand
You bite
And you fight
And you grab
And you stab
But you managed to get what you really wanted in the end

I would gaze at the outer world so unified by love
But the one thing I failed to see was the most important thing
And my soul so familiar to the loneliness inside
Glowered at the pool of sun as it collected at my feet

There are things that I would rather leave unsaid
Yes, I know that it's your way of showing love
Quietly the king retreats into his castle and
The emotions threaten from inside his lonely heart

There are things that I would rather leave unsaid
Hoping for a love that would never fade away
Given only eternity to do what must be done
I will happily devote myself for the sake of those I love

Open the door and step right in
Won't you stay a while
and let yourself be loved

In the warmth hidden deep inside the shadows of your heart
Lonely walls start to crumble in the castle you have built
And the days you have given up in search of your happiness
Is the one thing that tells you not to give up easily

I will gaze at the passing world and scatter it with love
As the tears all endlessly I watch you walk away
I'd gladly wait a thousand years if I knew that it would bring
Us together again and we'd live happily ever after.

Tokyo Teddy Bear [English]

Mother and father, my apologies to you
My knees are trembling, I'm sucking on my thumb.
Dear brother and sister, I'll see you both later
I'm very reckless, in these worn out shoes.

With vanity spreading, take the pattern paper
If it's all right with you, I will substitute them.

I grumbled silently that I wanted love
If I could find sharper scissors
I would cut off that face

Hear the words of the almighty omniscience go through my head
All I need is a clear mind, just a clear mind
Why not, I don't know
I got hurt while swinging the creation of tomorrow
Just to fill the gaps behind the seams, I must do this

Everybody, this is my goodbye
Sensei, I really do hope that you're alright
I drool as the drips make my chest throb

Is that what you really truly see?
You will make a fool out of yourself!
Is that what you really truly see?
You will make a fool out of yourself!

Ah, it's still not enough for me yet
The sewing machine must be bigger
So it can go through the heart

Hear the words of the almighty omniscience go through my head
All I need is a clear mind, just a clear mind
Why not, I don't know
I got hurt while swinging the creation of tomorrow
Just to fill the gaps behind the seams, I must do this

I have nothing, nothing left at all.
I tore it all off
This cell lying inside a deep sea of strings
So, I won't let myself be thrown away by anyone.
Not even in that dreaded place that I used to live.

Proof of existence
Ah, shut up, you're full of lies
I want to finish, let me cheat
So, give me the answer
Don't you want change? Don't you want to rise?
Nothing? This can't be me!
I slowly pulled off a thousand broken seams

I drown my mortal life. My days boil to an end.
It doesn't matter who I'll be, I just want to change!